A little piece of me still exists, even if the larger part of me can’t.

Where She Went, Gayle Forman

I think I’m kind of getting the concept of closure. It’s no big dramatic before-after. It’s more like that melancholy feeling you get at the end of a really good vacation. Something special is ending, and you’re sad, but you can’t be that sad because, hey, it was good while it lasted, and there’ll be other vacations, other good times.

Where She Went, Gayle Forman

I’ve come to realize there’s a world of difference between knowing something happened, even knowing why it happened, and believing it. Because when she cut off contact, yeah, I knew what had happened. But it took me a long, long time to believe it.

Where She Went, Gayle Forman

I find the need to remind myself of the temporariness of a day, to assure myself that I got through yesterday, I’ll get through today.

Where She Went, Gayle Forman

Because whatever else has gone wrong with us, we’re still loyal. About that.

Where She Went, Gayle Forman

Every morning I wake up and I tell myself this: It’s just one day, one twenty-four-hour period to get yourself through.

Where She Went, Gayle Forman

If you stay, I’ll do whatever you want. I’ll quit the band, go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I’ll do that, too… Maybe coming back to your old life would be too painful, that maybe it’d be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I’d do it. I can lose you like that if I don’t lose you today. I’ll let you go. If you stay.

If I Stay, Gayle Forman

Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you.

If I Stay, Gayle Forman

But this is the first time today that anyone has acknowledged what I have lost. I know that the social worker warned Gran and Gramps not to upset me, but Gramps’s recognition, and the permission he just offered me—it feels like a gift.

If I Stay, Gayle Forman

It’s okay,” he tells me. “If you want to go. Everyone wants you to stay. I want you to stay more than l’ve ever wanted anything in my life.” His voice cracks with emotion. He stops, clears his throat,
takes a breath, and continues. “But that’s what I want and I could see why it might not be what you want. So I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It’s okay if you have to leave us. It’s
okay if you want to stop fighting.

If I Stay, Gayle Forman